Crushed, Destroyed, Life Over, pick one. How did I reach this point you ask? It started like this...
One day as I was returning from class I noticed Dustin relaxing in the hot tub. I decided to join him and see if I could not further my goal of having a mans penis firmly inserted between my legs finally. Things were looking up, when immediately after getting in the tub, he asked me to cuddle with him. My first glimpse of his endowment left me weak and wondering if he would split me asunder.
I could not believe it was actually happening, I lost myself as I gazed into his eyes.
Our kiss was the stuff of legend, I heard the minstrels singing as we embraced.
When he first tried to slip it in to me it would not. He stopped for a second, looked into my eyes, and said, the question in his voice, "you're a virgin?" Nodding my head, afraid I would cry, I looked at him pleading. He caressed me and slowed his advance, plying my vagina with knowledgeable hands teasing the lips, and then settling on my clit. In short order he had me so worked up that when he again tried to insert himself, it went in. Not easily, and not pain free as I thought to myself that maybe I should have started with someone a bit smaller. I decided that I would worry about the stitches later. EUREKA! I finally had a man inside me, and more importantly, a man I loved. Soon we were rocking and swaying in the waves his movements into and out of my pussy bringing me to a crescendo that when it peaked...
Opened the sky and let the stars come down to Earth. I was transported, planetfall had never, ever, been like this before.
As high as I was at this moment, I was soon to be at the other extreme. We got out of the tub and his caress set my heart fluttering...
His next words chilled me to the marrow though. "Jill, I am falling in love with you, but I am not ready. My childhood was not an easy one, I will not repeat the mistakes that made it so. Compound that with the fact that I still have too much horn dog left in me to ask you to wait for me, I think we need to end this for now. The future may be different, when the time comes if you are still around I will count myself lucky."
With that, he gave me a kiss, and walked away.
After that my days seem to blur together, a never ending cycle of eat, class, study, sleep as the semesters rolled by. Though I may not have been the one to share his bed on those cold winters nights, I refused to allow myself to be angry with those whose squeals of pleasure indicated they were. I took solace in the fact that he was honest with me, and did not try to have both me and the others. Then, one night, shortly before his graduation, I saw him out by the wishing well. I could not help myself, I hoped he was wishing for me...
Finally, the day came. I had dreaded this day as the semesters had passed. Summa Cum Laude, I was so proud of him, but it was with some trepidation that I took my seat on the bench as he walked out of the dorm for the last time.
He hugged me, told me to keep my grades up. Without promising anything, he said maybe I would be hearing from him, if I was still around. I sat back down as he made the call that would end my life, couldn't he see the tears hiding in my eyes?
Becoming an adult had him excited, anxious to get on to the life that awaited him.
As he walked away, I said a prayer that he would find what he needed and call me to join him. A schoolgirls dream I know, but I have not yet given up hope of spending my life with my knight in shining armor.
I guess that is all for now, besides, if he doesn't call, there is always adoption, I know there will never be another man for me...
